text, royalty, and heart failure...

Marigold called me yesterday. More than half of her wants to die. She clearly told me so and we've been speaking of her death for the whole three hour conversation like if we were talking about weather, so she's pretty much okay with the idea. Now is she going to go through with it? It's for her to decide. None of the platitudes will work and I didn't even try for it wasn't , isn't my place. Wathever she decides I'll accept. At this point it's her life we're talking about and at the point that she is she can be selfish about it. The only thing that will keep her here is if she finds a reason to live for her sake, not the sake of anybody else 'cause that's just bull.
I can't say that it won't be a shame if she goes ,but I can't say that i care that much either, I'm not her and she's not me , we don't have the same perspective. However if she goes, she better not miss, because it'll open an ugly heavily psychiatricly medicated can of worms my friends.