GRRRRRRRRRR

Mrrrrrrhhhh

My heart started fluttering alot the past two days. I'm close to the time of the month. Anyways, I finally gave in my paper. My sentiments are mixed. I was suddenly afraid when i wrote it, like "yes, this is decisive. I'm not going back, what am i going to do?" Then there's the enthusiasm of the ring that faded with graduation jitters, I don't want to go up on the podium...I'm happy that this is over but i can't feel the accomplishment. It's more like a caleidoscope and i'm apathetic....Anyways i had the coolest dream based on the whaky talk i had yesterday with Burriko. I dreamnt of Päl/Merry living with Pippin and Frod having a crush on Päl and the later having periods. Oh yeah, and i laughed all night at their dirty jokes: Prank call from Elmo" I'm wistling with my ass" and he has a flute up his ass. Sam was a fireman. There was a nun who waguely reminded me of my mother.
Second dream: Päl is pregnant and it makes him crazy, he has an imaginary friend and the students of the school where he works at as a janitor found him weird and talked in his back. And he was soooo cute and shojo, I was just wishing for his boyfriend, whon i still didn't know who it was, would get the clue. He wouldn't eat and he was all weird, probably because of the hormones. Anyways then it switched with me wanting to go to the bathroom and diaria wouldn't stop coming out the bol, more precisely i couldn't stop pressing the button to make it come out of the lady's nose....LOL Anyways...