Really! Wow!

 Cannot believe that I can still access this blog. Who even reads these things anymore?

Still I hope it keeps up until I pass away. Too many things are changed or "lost", the longer you live. The only constant is change after all. All you are left with are intangible memories.

I don't remember how to get in my LiveJournal, my oldest blog was shot down a few years after GeoCities. Ah GeoCities, the good old obscure internet times of the 90's.

I don't care for facebook and still have access to my tumblr; forgot my Pinterest logins as well...

Can't believe that I can still access blogger. That's the journal nobody knew about. 

I am now 42 and have none of the "entourage" I had when I started this blog. I actually have 3 very sparse friendships and am not suffering from the solitude. It's so wild how things change when you understand yourself better or how 'brainwashed' you were by society, culture, etc.

Some values are good but most are not because the machine of society does not care about you; it cares about maintaining itself. It molds you to work for it, to maintain it. 

We live in a bee hive where we are all confined by the system, to the system; even as a 'queen' you have a role to fill or else the system ousts you.

If you are brave, you can see outside the system, move the the peripheries; yet the system is such, that you cannot live without it. Even when you are on the fringes, you depend on the the crumbs it will throw at you. Real successful off grid living is for the very few.

We have centuries of dependance that we are yet to shake off anytime soon.

Whelp, that went deep real fast.

Just wanted to write an update for 2022. Peace out!